giving up coffee

Not in water, so no worries.
Food is a struggle– some things to celebrate, some things to freak out about.

Tuesday’s Eats:


  • 2 eggs, sunny-side up, with garlic, crushed tomatoes, and pepper:

img_5426Very, Very tasty!

  • fat-free yogurt with a tsp of lemon juice


  • Best Quick Oats combo that I’ve had in a while:

img_5438I took an apple from work and walked home (well, to the housesitting gig) to make Quick Oats with apple, cinnamon, 1 tbsp of peanut butter, skim milk, and sweet-n-low.  AMAZING.

Unnecessary Snack:

  • Right– so this is the point in the day during which I ate a 400 calorie cinnamon bun.  Why?  Because a co-worker literally put it in my face right after I’d gotten into a screaming match (yes, screaming match) with my boss.  So upset that I did this *again*!


  • Chickpea and tuna salad with zatar and 2 tbsp of hummus:

img_5441Also very tasty!

  • Soy patty with garlic and olive oil

After Dinner:

  • Decaf coffee with a tsp of cocoa powder and skim milk– inspired by Eating Bender‘s coffee cocoa.  Very, very good– but I don’t really need to put cocoa in my coffee.  It feels excessive while I’m battling an addiction to sweets and avoiding chocolate.
  • 200 calories worth of toffee that my roommate left laying on the table.  Ugh.
  1. The good parts of today were the fact that I had a *lot* of water and have been keeping up with that goal meticulously, the fact that I’m still coffee free, and the fact that I made tasty meals that were satisfying three times.  Nothing on the go, nothing mediocre.
  2. It would have been a perfect day if I hadn’t had the toffee and the cinnamon bun.  Your suggestions have been on the mark, and despite the fact that I am *extremely* stressed right now, I need to put them in action.  Today I’m going to  try doing something else when I’m stressed, and making room for *small* portions of sweets to see if that will curb the craving.

Really want to blog about everything that is stressing me out, but I have to get going.  More later.


Got into a draining argument with the boy (not boyfriend– we have issues, which is a whole different story for a different blog) and was feeling sorry for myself all day.  That and the rainy weather (which I absolutely love, but still…) made me really sluggish.  Didn’t do much that didn’t require a lot of sitting, aside from walking  this cutie– the dog that I’m dogsitting right now:


Anyway, on to today’s food:

Brunch (woke up too late for breakfast):

  • Quick Oats with skim milk, Splenda, and cinnamon– simple, but good.


  • 2 eggs with onions and spoonful of matbucha— good! And finally eating some protein:


  • Small salad– which was really just a few lettuce leaves with light vinegarette


  • Bowl of Cheerios
  • Decaf coffee with skim


  • R and I made this delicious Garlic Soup— great recipe, recommend using 2 cups of stock rather than 1.5:


  • Salad– lettuce, tomato, cucumber, fennel (recent obsession of mine), and light vinegarette
  • Sweet potato with margarine– always, always, always yummy:


  • Israeli couscous– another recent obsession of mine– with a few spoonfuls of tomato paste, garlic, zucchini, onion, and a few sprinkles of all spice:


I really enjoyed this dinner.  A lot.  Felt satisfied again, not completely stuffed.

I felt like I ate well today in the sense that I had two meals that were tasty and healthy.  I didn’t eat anything on-the-go (probably because I was a complete blob all day and didn’t really go anywhere!) and it’s just a simple fact that I really enjoy my food a lot more when I put some effort into it.

I’m still housesitting for another week, but I’m going to make a real effort to not slack when it comes to cooking and healthy (not dull) eating.

Over 3 weeks and I’m still coffee free! Pretty soon, I’ll have gone a week without chocolate, also.

Today’s biggest accomplishment, by far, was not eating something unhealthy or unnecessary just because I was stressed and upset about the previously mentioned boy.

On to my exercise problems– I’m supposed to run a 10k in 1 month and a half and I am so exhausted lately and slacking in the running department.  I need to run that race 😦

If you know me at all, you know that warm milk with honey (being that I live in the land of milk and honey, and all) has become a staple for me when I’m cold or when I’m craving coffee (almost 3 weeks now, coffee free!).  I love love love yogurt and cheese and often have cravings for a glass of milk on its own.  This would all be dandy except… I think that I’m lactose intolerant.

I have all of the symptoms.  It used to just be minor, but now I’m feeling gassy (sorry!) and nauseous after having my nightly warm milk and honey, and I can’t think of any other reason.

This *can’t* be happening!  I don’t know what I’ll do without dairy.  Maybe I should start trying dairy substitutes? 😦

Dinner reservations tonight. hoping that it isn’t a disaster…

Today was a good day in terms of staying healthy. I’m not at home right now, I’m house sitting at an apartment without all of my regular food and kitchen supplies, and so I’ve been kind of unmotivated to cook. Last week was full of new recipes and exciting healthy adventures– this week has been dull. In any case, I’m happy that I didn’t engage in any stress eating or emotional eating today and I’m getting ready for bed feeling like I can stick to all of this and accomplish my goals..

Today’s food:


  • oatmeal (real, not instant!) with skim milk
  • decaf coffee (we’re approaching 3 weeks of being coffee free!!!)


  • whole wheat pita, 2 pieces of light cheese with tomato
  • small mug of tomato soup


  • Light soy chocolate milk (box– see photo from previous entry– very good, and it’s not real chocolate– still chocolate free!!!)

Dinner (didn’t feel like cooking, so we prepared kind of a free for all):

  • couscous-type-stuff with some tomato paste, oregano, and garlic
  • whole wheat pita w 1/4 can of tuna and parsley and tomato
  • small green salad with light vinegarette
  • an egg (protein, finally)


  • decaf coffee
  1. Again, really happy that I ate reasonably today, when I was hungry– *not* just because I was stressed. Also celebrating giving up coffee and chocolate. More on that later…
  2. I focused a lot on water today. I had a little more than 1.5 liters and I really feel the difference. I’m usually dehydrated on some level. The water also helped curb the desire to snack when I was kind of bored. I’m going to try and keep up with drinking this much water daily.
  3. I’ll be house sitting for another 8 days, and so I really need to force myself to continue to cook and try new things even though I’m in a different place and feel less comfortable. Making the same, easy stuff all of the time makes being healthy less exciting than it was a week ago. I don’t want boredom to be my downfall…

Like I said in previous posts, I gave up coffee for health reasons. I am *really* affected by caffeine– my heart races and my sleep schedule was totally off. Now my sleep schedule is completely normal and my body feels better, healthier. This was one of the best and healthiest decisions that I’ve made in a long time. Giving up chocolate has also made me feel healthier. Eventually, when I no longer use it as a crutch and find healthier ways to deal with stress, I’ll slowly integrate it back into my diet. For now, I’m still happy with this choice..

I’ve been perusing the foodie blogosphere recently and am picking up all sorts of ideas for healthy meals and lifestyles– it’s exciting! A couple of things that today’s perusing has brought up for me:

  • People seem really into lara bars and other bars as snacks or parts of meals. I’ve never gotten into the whole bar thing, but I’m thinking that it might be a good snack to try. I’m trying to figure out which to try, and which aren’t *too* expensive.
  • Support really is crucial. The food bloggers have this entire network of people that support them, and given my earlier post today re: friends that aren’t supportive, I’ve realized that I need to do a better job for creating a support network.

Hoping that tomorrow is also a success! Day by day, I think, is the best way to handle all of this.

Today’s Eats:


  • Cornflakes and skim milk
  • Decaf coffee (should probably mention that I’m a coffee addict and giving it up. I haven’t had real coffee in 10 days)


  • 220 kcal of dark chocolate (oops. I had intense chocolate cravings and I need to learn to deal with them. I managed not to eat a whole bar….)


  • Whole Wheat crackers with tuna (light mayo) and some nasty light cheese (need to cut down on cheese– can’t resist)

*managed to avoid a snack between lunch and dinner*


  • Rice and vegetables in a light sweet/spicy sauce


  • Split a bottle and a half of wine with one other person. Shit.


* I quit drinking coffee because I have a condition that mimics (but isn’t) a cardiovascular issue. As a result, I am highly sensitive to caffeine and my 4-5 cup -a-day habit made my heart race and gave me headaches. My cravings are still really intense, but I find that drinking decaf has been helping a lot. The withdrawal symptoms are quieting and now I really just crave the taste.

* Alcohol: I used to be a pretty heavy drinker and I’ve really cut down over the past year. I don’t even drink on a weekly basis anymore (excluding my cup of wine with dinner, which happens a couple of times a week– but I’m talking about getting drunk here), but it seems that a bottle of wine has become standard when it comes to hanging out with most of my friends. I’m not sure if I should work this into my schedule and ‘live a little’, or if I should work harder to avoid it. I’m really wary of altering my social life because of food– I feel like it’s setting myself up for failure. Thoughts?

* Cooking really helps. Making a meal, knowing exactly what goes into it, and reaping the culinary benefits is really therapeutic for me. It’s also a fun social activity; lately I’ve been inviting friends over for meals rather than meeting them at cafes and restaurants, so we’ve been able to eat a healthier meal and save money.

Going Out To Eat:

I’m going out to eat with a friend on Thursday night. I’m not sure if I should attempt to be healthy, or if I should just go all out being that I don’t go out to eat very often. I have to do more to define my boundaries before I’m in these situations.